07/06/09
I’ve always been aware that I am somewhat lacking when it comes to social situations. I find I often say awkward things and then I tuck myself away in a corner somewhere until I can slip away unseen and get in my little car, Ruby, and drive to the safety of my home. (Even keeping a journal is slightly horrifying because it requires sharing what’s in my head). I knew when I started Esthetician school that my ineptitude would be something I would probably need to work on, since I was getting myself into a profession that requires marketing, and meeting, and introducing, and talking, and blah blah blah. Tons of scary things like that. So I worked on it…a little bit, at least, and figured that the rest would just have to come naturally...this is not the case. I’m nowhere near being as extroverted as I’d like, and I prove that to myself over and over again just about everyday.
I had a guy walk in to the shop one day a few weeks ago. He was a decent looking guy (dressed nicely, hair short and groomed, etc). He was obviously a business man type of guy, as he started asking me about our internet/fax/phone provider and whether or not we wanted to buy a package deal, etc, etc. Well that day, I happened to have Baby Thinkpad with me (my laptop is a somewhat old school IBM Thinkpad) and my boss had her newer laptop out sitting on the front desk next to mine. And as the man talked about our internet provider, he gestured at the two computers sitting there and referred to them as the ‘company computers’. Now, instead of explaining to him that the little beauty in front of me was my personal computer, and the other computer belonged to my boss who wasn’t in the shop at the moment, I let him tell me his whole schpeal, only because I was too awkward to open my mouth. Oh and part way through his speech he said, “I’m sorry, I didn’t catch your name…” making me realize that when he courteously introduced himself to me, I failed to introduce myself to him. I just don’t think of those things!! Finally, when he was finished, I couldn’t think of anything helpful to say, so I just gave him my boss’ business card and told him he could call her on her cell. I’m sure she appreciated that… I just wanted to get him out of there though! I didn’t know what to say! Looking back on it though, I feel like saying, DUH, to myself. How did I not know what to say? So, I’ll keep working on that social thing.